Friday, February 24, 2012


Do you ever feel like just doing something crazy?? 
Something just completely new, and strange and exciting?
Like just packing up and driving off and not looking back until you find what you're looking for...
I don't know...maybe I'm being over dramatic or whatever... I guess I've just been feeling kind of...stuck.
I just don't want to end up with a job I hate, or married with kids without having done...something in my life.
Don't get me wrong, I really really want those things (maybe not so much the hating my job one, but you know, having a job, being married, having kids), I want them a lot.
I need to find myself before I do any of that though.
I know, I know, this is all very angsty young adult of me, but it's true.
I don't understand how I am expected to know what I want to do with the rest of my life, when I don't even really know what I really enjoy doing...
I've been spending thousands and thousands of dollars to go to school for essentially nothing, since I don't have a major yet, which, when I think about it, makes absolutely no sense to me.
I mean its been fun, but there hasn't been a point.
I am $11,000 dollars in debt and all I have to show for it is random knowledge about Prometheus and Craftsman style homes.
And now you are probably thinking, "just choose something then", but that I feel like would most definitely lead to the job I hate with all my soul, something I plan on avoiding if possible.
I don't even know what I'm saying anymore... like I said I've just been feeling like I just want to go, get out, drop off the map, meet new people (which if you know anything about me is super scary, cuz I hate meeting new people haha), do whatever. 
I think this is one of the many reasons I have decided to serve a mission.
At the very least it will be new, and challenging, and exciting, not to mention all the spiritual growth that usually comes along with a mish.
I don't know, I hope I haven't bored you too much with my angstiness and ramblings.
Have an AWESOME day! =]

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